Woman

I am strong and I am weak

but in every way I am complete

I laugh and I do cry

but your tears, I always dry.

I get hurt a lot of times

and to hide them...I mime

I am your friend, a teacher, a guide

and for what I am I take pride.

Your inner voice is what I am

when you fail...I believe 'You can'

I might be broken and torn apart

but its easy to love me and please my heart.

I am courage, when you lose hope

I am strength, when you struggle to cope

I comfort you when you trip and fall

will be next to you, at your call.

I do complaint sometimes you see

it pains when my loved ones don't respect me

I can love even when I am hurt

I know to forgive, when treated like dirt.

Why is it that I am unheard?

Why am I like that caged bird?

I am a human, just like you

I have a heart, that bleeds too.

I raise my voice just to know

Why am I always placed so low?

You might wonder who 'I' might be?

I am a woman, a truth, a reality...

Daddy's Girl

Singing those sweet lovely lullaby's
yesteryears have just gone by
on my own now I twist and twirl
but will always remain my Daddy's girl.

Music that binds our memories forever
fighting, crying and laughing together
...diamond rings and necklaces of pearl
but will always remain my Daddy's girl.

You fulfill my wishes...never let me cry
...an all time friend, all my tears you dry
helped me de-tangle my Barbie's curls
I'll always remain my Daddy's girl.

As I move forward I once look behind
a person like you, I'll never find
in-front of me now here is a new world
But I will always remain your little girl....

Insecure

A shadow in the dark...
strange restless feeling

no edge to embark...

my fears that are screaming.

I sense the pain of loneliness

of losing whats not mine

I pass glances at those evil cross

that changed everything over time.

Oh! look at you,you insecure fool

laughed the girl in the mirror

what is it that you haven't lost?

at losing you are a winner.

I curl myself up into my cocoon

thoughts entwine my fake world

with all those voices that I never want to hear

and those scary faces around me they swirl........

For all my friends...

Tic tocks, chalk box, love talks and long walks

Coffee sips, chap sticks, chocolate dips and music-rock

Warm hugs, hot milk mugs, dirty rugs are now gone

For the time has passed we have grown so fast

And what we have are memories to hold on........

Wine-dine, song and rhyme, vodka shots now I miss

Stroll in rain, fun night stays, wandering away… oh how I wish

Raw mud, a new pink bud, and letters in blood… now fade away

Yesteryears, reindeer all left behind where it’s meant to stay

The smell of flowers, long date hours, holding hands…honey sweet

long phone calls, flooded mailbox, sweet sweet talks… a love filled treat

Wrapped up gifts, mushy winks, girly pinks… gives me the rush…

First love, patchups - breakups, mushy mush… memories I crush

I look back once, what I have left behind, tears flow down… I wish to cry

I miss you all… miss the ones I love… the good the bad, innocent and sly

I wish them back… all of them back; feel out of track... that’s what I lack

To all my friends, I have lost touch with… this is for you, this note in black…

Its you...

It’s you I dream of every night

a face yet to be discovered

that light shining above you

a reflection of god himself.

It’s you who`ll see right through me

my happiness, my anger, my love, my pain

your arm is where I’m meant to be

so safe loved protected and warm.

You`re divine, you`ll complete me

you`re an angel, it’s you who`ll guide me

my confession box, my prayers answered

the sweetest truth, the one I’ll hold on forever.

It’s you I know a picture not very clear

deep through that mist I see you walk towards me

the closer you get, peace entwines me

and when our eyes meet, I’ll know this was meant to be.

My eyes search for that angel I see

your voice, your touch, your presence

and when I’ll `find you, the one for me

every heartbeat would beat only for you.......forever and ever till eternity.



For you V...

Far away but not apart
our silent talks heart to heart
the special bond that we share
is the reason for the smile I wear.

Scarlet love is what we hold

a secret tale...untold...

just two hearts in harmony

to make this a beautiful journey

So, lets celebrate-

our stupid fights

our first conversation

our first date night 

all those moments we never really cared

every single moment thats yet to be shared

Not many words to spell tonight

I think of us and it feels so right

with every breath you know its true

beyond forever I'll love you...

Curry Leaves

As I lie awake on my bed tonight
My thoughts they wander to a familiar land
Tall coconut trees, green is all I see
I can hear her calling me
A distant distinct voice
Sweet as honey…she calls me once again
I Look around I don’t see her
Hassled I look for her once again
There she is, on her knees with her arms outstretched
Calling me waiting for me to rush to her and feel her warmth
A tear trickles down my face now
I twist and turn on my bed
Trying to sleep I drift away once again
Now to the kitchen balcony
I see me playing all by myself
And there she is smiling at me
 I can see she’s happy
There is no pain in her eyes  
All she knows is that her daughter means the world to her…
I wake up to myself I know I can’t sleep tonight
Her presence is all over that room
My mother… My everything
I rush to the other room and smile as I watch her sleeping…
My baby… My daughter
I now know why my mother smiled every time she watched me play
She missed her innocence just as much as I miss my innocence now.
I walk past my Kitchen garden
Thoughts still lingering in my head
Cold breeze brushing me
The smell of curry leaves in the air
I know she’s somewhere near
Maybe In the scent of the curry leaves
I know she is watching me now
And smiling just the way she did
Many years ago in the land of the Curry Leaves

Through your eyes

There are people all around me

I hear one of them saying-Poor Chap

Ambulance, doctors, Police… all of them crawling like insects

Why did you have to do this my friend?

What went so wrong?

Why do I see a blood stained bed sheet…Once where we sat with a cup of tea gossips and memories?

I clench my teeth I will not cry

For I know how difficult it must have been for you

To leave behind your priced possessions-A pen and a paper

Oh orphaned child why did you stray away

How did your strength lose hope?

Why didn’t my phone ring when you needed me?

I’m awakened by a tap on my shoulder

He asked me to give this to you

I smile at the little boy at the tea stall.

A letter… A pure white sheet as pure as his heart… Inked with words I didn’t want to read.

I read through his eyes the pain he went through that night

When he raised that blade in his hand

One slit and it’s all gone…all that he suffered in his 15 years of life span.

Coward many would call him , to do something so foolish…

Who would end their lives just like that? There always is a better option.

But I know how strong a person he’d been when every night he was beaten up.

A small boy of 8 who was given the news that his mother was killed for money

No education… there on the streets rotting there for the dogs to feast on his remains

Unlucky he would always say….but he loved to write…He always wanted to write

So god gave him a chance to write this one last letter that sums up his life he couldn’t bear anymore.

He was picked up from that street… a gentle hand… an old man who taught him how to love, write, sing read and moreover how to trust again.

Now that old man was gone… Leaving behind this boy of 13… all alone

He lived…for 5 years washing cars, serving the men at a bar, picked garbage bags… earned and lived.

He loved to write, I remember I met him outside the school I teach he would always tell me how one day he would become an established writer…

I miss him…But I know he had had enough. He was tired… I could see how his eyes kept searching for something… Through his eyes I see how difficult it would have been for him to cut himself down…

But I know his thirsty soul now has found what it was searching for….Love… True love… In god’s arms.

 

IF...

If tomorrow I walk away,

Do not fret don’t ask me to stay

Please do let me go

I’ll hide my feelings I will not show….

And if tomorrow you see me cry

Don’t look back…I cannot try

For all the good times that we’ve shared

I know it from my heart you cared

  

Or if tomorrow I crave for you

All lost in life with no clue

Pray for me with all your heart

To give me strength as we part….

For if tomorrow I forget it all

And all the promises…they fall

Just think of all the moments of glee

And let me fade away…just a memory….